This work was painted by Pavel Chistyakov in 1861 and won him the Gold Medal of the Imperial Academy of Arts. Now it may be seen in the State Russian Museum.
The Great Feudal War in Muscovy started on the day of Vasili II's wedding, February 8, 1433. His mother, Sofia Vitovtovna, present at the wedding, recognized that Vasily the Cross-Eyed wore a golden belt which had formerly belonged to her father-in-law, Dmitry Donskoi. Accusing Vasili of stealing, she solemnly pulled the belt from the bewildered prince. Disgusted with such a greed on Sofia's part, Vasili's father Yuriy of Zvenigorod left the capital and declared the war. Source: Wikipedia
I want a lot of things.
I realize I ought to be appreciative of what I have, and I am. The two things---wanting and appreciating---are not mutually exclusive. Sometimes I feel an achy hunger inside me and I think, I was born hungry and will spend my life mentally and emotionally dieting, as well as physically dieting. It's a terrible thing to be born hungry sometimes.
Today I am tired of fighting to be a better person, a good person. Today my uglies are hanging out, like a purple paisely thong out of acid wash low-riders.
Today I am willing to say what I want instead of counting my blessings. Today I will feel no guilt about it.
Today it's okay to admit I feel stressed, anxious, and not in charge sometimes. Today it's okay to admit that although I generally am pretty close to having my act together, sometimes, underneath, it's really a rat in a wheel running this shell of a person. Today I don't mind admitting that all isn't hunky dory and I don't need to put on the hunky dory act.
I don't want to play the hunky dory game today.
I will tell you what I do want.
1. I want Darfur fixed. I don't want any more carnage that makes me question my species.
2. I want every parent to be able to properly care for their children, all needs provided for. I don't want parents who want to parent their children unable to do so, or live life with an every day despairing fear that someone else could do it better.
3. I want more money. Not a ton. Enough. I know, what's enough? Here it is
* I want enough that my husband doesn't leave our house every day hollow-eyed from overwork because he's too afraid to take five minutes off for fear it puts him in layoff jeopardy.
* I want enough that our family can afford to go out, and go places, and do fun things. And I want to be able to do it without guilt.
* I want savings accounts that are full and college accounts that are growing.
* I want to be able to buy organic products and not worry that this will put us over budget.
* I want to be able to do the repairs on our house that we need to do.
* I just want enough that we can live as we ought to. I don't want or need a country club membership or jet set life. I just want enough to easily take care of the needs, and the simple and reasonable wants.
4. I want to wake up in the morning without the fear of the sky falling.
5. I want a vacation. No, two. One for the family, and one for me and my husband.
6. I want to be able to afford to provide the education Patience needs.
7. I want a massage, and enough time and money to resume my yoga and dance classes.
8. I want to be healthy again. I don't want this sickness or these changes. I want my energy and my health back. I don't want to be the most expensive person and highest need person in my family any longer.
9. I want to be able to go to BlogHer.
10. I want to know what I want to be when I grow up.
11. I want to be able to go to the doctor---or anywhere else that costs, which feels like everywhere---and pay without feeling nausea roil in my stomach.
12. I want more patience. When bad things happen---as they will---I don't want to feel angry instead of feeling powerless.
That'll do, donkey, that'll do.
Do you have wants and wishes?
copyright 2007 Julie Pippert